That is the question right now.
PTO. For those of you who do not know, it means paid time off.
Everyone else seems to take advantage of it around here so why shouldn't I right? As long as my work is done and I don't leave important things pending.
What is wrong with me? Why do I feel guilty anytime I can do something for me when it comes to my job? I always tell people to take advantage of their vacation days if they have them. I know first hand that it ultimately doesn't matter if you sacrifice your PTO for any company (small or large). If you're entitled to it and most importantly, if it's been approved, then why the hell not?
I'm stupid, I know.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Morning rant
My usual, but my twitter friends are getting sick of me saying the same shit over and over. Still, I don't care. I need to rant. I'm a bit annoyed. I'm getting sick and tired of people walking in here and asking for monetary help. I need money, can you help me? Well fuck you! I need money too! And they don't ask, they demand! If you're entitled to it, by all means ask for your unemployment insurance benefits. But if you haven't worked for a year because you quit, then don't get pissed when they deny them. And don't get pissed off because lame Laredo doesn't have an unemeployment local office. It is what it is so deal with it. I did, so must you. Fucking idiots, thinking theyre something special just because they don't feel comfortable using the phone and talking to a strager about their shit. Get over it.
I'm also sick and tired of nobody else wanting to deal with anything and anyone around here. The front receptionist sends me anyone she doesn't wanna deal with. Like if she doesn't understand wtf they're talking about she sends them here. Ask them! Ask what they need and listen. It sucks that they have people going around in circles, when she couldve just told them that this building was not the right place for them.
I'm a bit frustrated. Holidays are closing in and we were already tight money-wise, now we've had some unforseen charges here and there so it makes it a bit more difficult. Not to mention we still have a last payment to give to our lawyer, which I don't think he'll be getting sometime soon, although I'd like to get it out of the way; I would hate for the new year to begin with a balance with that guy. Not that we'll be completely poor, but we could've done without all of this now. Then again, so does everyone else. I'm nobody special, it just happens.
I'm just annoyed today and it's affecting any moron that walks in not knowing anything that surrounds their world, which is also my world and I know at least the basics of survival. You don't need to be a genuis to figure it out.
I'm also sick and tired of nobody else wanting to deal with anything and anyone around here. The front receptionist sends me anyone she doesn't wanna deal with. Like if she doesn't understand wtf they're talking about she sends them here. Ask them! Ask what they need and listen. It sucks that they have people going around in circles, when she couldve just told them that this building was not the right place for them.
I'm a bit frustrated. Holidays are closing in and we were already tight money-wise, now we've had some unforseen charges here and there so it makes it a bit more difficult. Not to mention we still have a last payment to give to our lawyer, which I don't think he'll be getting sometime soon, although I'd like to get it out of the way; I would hate for the new year to begin with a balance with that guy. Not that we'll be completely poor, but we could've done without all of this now. Then again, so does everyone else. I'm nobody special, it just happens.
I'm just annoyed today and it's affecting any moron that walks in not knowing anything that surrounds their world, which is also my world and I know at least the basics of survival. You don't need to be a genuis to figure it out.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Desensitized at work
It's becoming more common for me. I've finally lost all sense of care for my place of employment. And I think I mean it generally. Like it doesn't matter where I work. Don't get me wrong, I am still very professional, I meet my deadlines and I do my job to the best of my abilities. But I used to like to work. Anywhere I worked I was always happy to be helpful, loved to learn new things, took pride in everything I did.
It started happening at my old job. I just suddenly started feeling like nobody around me cared about anything but themselves. And I used to not care about that. Maybe naive on my part, but I always thought there was a good side to everybody and that everyone cared about their job as well. Sure, you go to work to work, not to make friends, and that's fine. But that is exactly why there shouldn't be animosity between coworkers. Sometimes you will agree on things and sometimes you won't. Working through those differences is a skill that not everyone posseses. That makes it a challenge for people like me, who just want to get the job done right and go home. Well that was then anyway. Now I don't care either way. Before, I would love a pat on the back or a recognition for my success. And it's getting to the point where I don't even care about trying to tackle the problem and find common ground. Now I just want to finish what I'm asked for and go home without really trying to work anything out. I've turned into a soldier who follows orders. And I can do a lot or just the basics to get the job done, whatever I'm asked to do, but I don't go the extra mile anymore. I don't volunteer anymore. Wtf for? NOBODY gives a shit.
So the place where I work now is not perfect, no company is. I've just never seen so much bitching. I like most of my coworkers, they're a fun bunch for the most part. Still, I trust NO ONE. And I hate that because I feel that some people are genuinly nice and care. I just... don't anymore. But yeah... TONS of bitching and complaining. In all my professional life, I've never seen it this bad. To me, a person who wastes more time bitching than working is useless. Sure, sometimes you can have legitimate complaints; but for the most part, figure it out, work it out, do something to fix the issue before you bitch about your supervisors or TO your supervisors about other coworkers and just get to work. You're a fucking adult, act like it. Also, I see a lot of: "that's not my job or that's not in my job description." This one has happened everywhere I have worked. Lazy asses. That's something I will NEVER say. Even if I don't give a shit anymore. Like I said, I follow orders and if I know how to do something I'll do it instead of wasting time arguing. I seriously don't get that from people. Just fucking do it.
** Sidebar** A client has been waiting here for his caseworker for over an hour. This person has been absent twice this week already (she was sick) and she was so behind on work yesterday that another person had to help her. Well today she called in late, when she had appointments starting at 9 am. It's already 9:40 and a man has been waiting for her since 8:30. He just told me that she always does this. He said something I totally agree on, his exact words: "I am going to report her. I can't believe she's this unprofessional. Here I am really trying to get a job, meanwhile the person who has one, doesn't even care about it. It's not fair". True. But you know what? This is what I have been talking about. IT DOESN'T MATTER!!! There have been complaints about her since I started working here 6 months ago. Almost every week. Yet she gets away with it, each and every time. Some people are just this lucky. I like this chick, she's really cool AND she knows her shit, BUT she's VERY lazy and she doesn't give a crap. I mean, I can understand the fact that she doesn't care, but she's like 24 yrs old. She should be more eager at this age. I can't even imagine what she will be like 10 years from now. So bad. I do feel bad for this poor man. He has shit to do and if he leaves, his case gets penalized. He's stuck here when he could be doing job searches. **
I digress...
The other thing is that most supervisors will always point the finger at you, it doesn't matter if they're right or wrong. I've lost the interest to fight back. They say something is my responsibility, even though I know it's not and I say ok. I know they're full of shit, but who cares? Me arguing isn't going to change a damn thing. I've realized that some supervisors have no clue wtf they're doing. They have depended on others to get from point A to B. Lucky, sure, but I would't want to work like that. I've been a supervisor, but I worked my way up. If someone from my team didn't show up to work, I know I could do what they do AND my job. That's how you get to the top to begin with. Well, in some cases anyway.
The reason I began thinking of this is because I see a lot of hypocrisy around here. Well, everywhere I have worked at really. But here it's pretty bad. At least where I worked before, you knew eventually who to stay away from. Here, people talk shit about other people and then they all hang out after work. I heard from a coworker yesterday that she reported a supervisor to HR, yet she still went to her party last weekend. WTF? I actually laughed at that one. Then she told me that the supervisor has been retaliating against her because she reported her. Well DUH! Yet there you were dancing at her party. Don't get me wrong, I like this girl, she's really funny, but that just tells me she either has very low self esteem (which I doubt bc she had the balls to report this person), she's a full blown liar or she just loves to pick a fight. Either way, I know I wouldn't hang out with someone I don't respect, but that's just me. Do I care about their drama? Not really. I get along with everyone and if someone doesn't like me, I don't care either. It just got me thinking how much I really can't feel anything for either party. I take no sides, not even to myself.
Right now all I can say is, it doesn't matter anymore. I kinda hope the joy of doing a good job comes back to me so that it doesnt ultimately affect my job performance. Then again, right now, I don't really care enough if it never does because I know that being a good employee most times won't get you anywhere anyway. I'm not sad, or depressed or even angry about it. I've just changed a lot in that sense. It just is how it is nowadays.
It started happening at my old job. I just suddenly started feeling like nobody around me cared about anything but themselves. And I used to not care about that. Maybe naive on my part, but I always thought there was a good side to everybody and that everyone cared about their job as well. Sure, you go to work to work, not to make friends, and that's fine. But that is exactly why there shouldn't be animosity between coworkers. Sometimes you will agree on things and sometimes you won't. Working through those differences is a skill that not everyone posseses. That makes it a challenge for people like me, who just want to get the job done right and go home. Well that was then anyway. Now I don't care either way. Before, I would love a pat on the back or a recognition for my success. And it's getting to the point where I don't even care about trying to tackle the problem and find common ground. Now I just want to finish what I'm asked for and go home without really trying to work anything out. I've turned into a soldier who follows orders. And I can do a lot or just the basics to get the job done, whatever I'm asked to do, but I don't go the extra mile anymore. I don't volunteer anymore. Wtf for? NOBODY gives a shit.
So the place where I work now is not perfect, no company is. I've just never seen so much bitching. I like most of my coworkers, they're a fun bunch for the most part. Still, I trust NO ONE. And I hate that because I feel that some people are genuinly nice and care. I just... don't anymore. But yeah... TONS of bitching and complaining. In all my professional life, I've never seen it this bad. To me, a person who wastes more time bitching than working is useless. Sure, sometimes you can have legitimate complaints; but for the most part, figure it out, work it out, do something to fix the issue before you bitch about your supervisors or TO your supervisors about other coworkers and just get to work. You're a fucking adult, act like it. Also, I see a lot of: "that's not my job or that's not in my job description." This one has happened everywhere I have worked. Lazy asses. That's something I will NEVER say. Even if I don't give a shit anymore. Like I said, I follow orders and if I know how to do something I'll do it instead of wasting time arguing. I seriously don't get that from people. Just fucking do it.
** Sidebar** A client has been waiting here for his caseworker for over an hour. This person has been absent twice this week already (she was sick) and she was so behind on work yesterday that another person had to help her. Well today she called in late, when she had appointments starting at 9 am. It's already 9:40 and a man has been waiting for her since 8:30. He just told me that she always does this. He said something I totally agree on, his exact words: "I am going to report her. I can't believe she's this unprofessional. Here I am really trying to get a job, meanwhile the person who has one, doesn't even care about it. It's not fair". True. But you know what? This is what I have been talking about. IT DOESN'T MATTER!!! There have been complaints about her since I started working here 6 months ago. Almost every week. Yet she gets away with it, each and every time. Some people are just this lucky. I like this chick, she's really cool AND she knows her shit, BUT she's VERY lazy and she doesn't give a crap. I mean, I can understand the fact that she doesn't care, but she's like 24 yrs old. She should be more eager at this age. I can't even imagine what she will be like 10 years from now. So bad. I do feel bad for this poor man. He has shit to do and if he leaves, his case gets penalized. He's stuck here when he could be doing job searches. **
I digress...
The other thing is that most supervisors will always point the finger at you, it doesn't matter if they're right or wrong. I've lost the interest to fight back. They say something is my responsibility, even though I know it's not and I say ok. I know they're full of shit, but who cares? Me arguing isn't going to change a damn thing. I've realized that some supervisors have no clue wtf they're doing. They have depended on others to get from point A to B. Lucky, sure, but I would't want to work like that. I've been a supervisor, but I worked my way up. If someone from my team didn't show up to work, I know I could do what they do AND my job. That's how you get to the top to begin with. Well, in some cases anyway.
The reason I began thinking of this is because I see a lot of hypocrisy around here. Well, everywhere I have worked at really. But here it's pretty bad. At least where I worked before, you knew eventually who to stay away from. Here, people talk shit about other people and then they all hang out after work. I heard from a coworker yesterday that she reported a supervisor to HR, yet she still went to her party last weekend. WTF? I actually laughed at that one. Then she told me that the supervisor has been retaliating against her because she reported her. Well DUH! Yet there you were dancing at her party. Don't get me wrong, I like this girl, she's really funny, but that just tells me she either has very low self esteem (which I doubt bc she had the balls to report this person), she's a full blown liar or she just loves to pick a fight. Either way, I know I wouldn't hang out with someone I don't respect, but that's just me. Do I care about their drama? Not really. I get along with everyone and if someone doesn't like me, I don't care either. It just got me thinking how much I really can't feel anything for either party. I take no sides, not even to myself.
Right now all I can say is, it doesn't matter anymore. I kinda hope the joy of doing a good job comes back to me so that it doesnt ultimately affect my job performance. Then again, right now, I don't really care enough if it never does because I know that being a good employee most times won't get you anywhere anyway. I'm not sad, or depressed or even angry about it. I've just changed a lot in that sense. It just is how it is nowadays.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Pumpkins and joy
I have really been enjoying my time with X lately. Not that we never do, but usually we hang out with friends when we don't have the kids. For 2 weekends in a row we have just been acting like newlyweds. This past weekend we went to the movies on Friday then we had dinner. I don't think we've ever done dinner and a movie kinda date before. I like the movies but I hate opening day. I don't like that many people around me when I'm trying to watch a movie. I like to wait a few weeks after it opens, but most times I wait too long and by the time I'm ready, the movie is gone. This weekend we finally went to watch Devil. I liked it and I liked the fact that there were only 3 other people and no children.
Then we went to dinner. I don't understand the whole dinner and a movie in that order. I say it should be a movie and dinner. First off I would probably fall asleep after having dinner and most likely drinks, then going to the theater. Full stomach in a cool dark place? Yeah, nap time for sure. If you watch the movie before dinner, you have at least that one topic of conversation. It's later in the evening so you can have your drinks and a light dinner. We went to a 5.45 pm show, right after work on Friday. We were out by 7 pm. Just in time for dinner.
First we went to Hayashi. I was looking forward to some entertainment, a few drinks and just a good ol time. They sit us down in an empty hibachi table. I'm thinking oh dear lord, it's never gonna fill up. Who knows how long we'll be here. Well we were not alone for long. A family of like 8 showed up with 2 kids and what looked like a 3 year old asleep in the dads arms. HA! Thanks but no thanks. I told X, sorry dood, we gotta go. That's probably the con in going to a restaurant that early. Kids eat early. So off we go to Red Lobster. I wanted fish or shrimp, which is why I chose Hayashi to begin with. Red Lobster was nice. Not a lot of people, room in the bar area and a championship baseball game on. Perfect. By the way, I have to say that X is the most patient man I've ever met. He always lets me choose the restaurant, even when I don't want to, because he knows that as a woman I'm "special", whatever that means. I'd like him to choose every now and then but he says he's happy going to Whataburger or Pizza Hut. So when I choose a burger, pizza or wing place, I mostly do it for him. I like it too, but I know it makes him happy.
** Sidebar - X just asked me what I was doing right now. He looks over my shoulder and sees that I'm blogging. He's like: "What you blogging about?" I told him that it was about our weekend. Not the greatest topic to some I know, but I'm getting tired of going to my blog and seeing tits. I needed something to push it down. He thought that was funny. I guess you had to be here. :p
Saturday we did nothing but watch movies and play WoW. We went shopping for pumpkins and window decorations for our little patio. We did some dancing with the a Wii game called Just Dance 2. You don't need to go to the gym. You wanna break into a sweat and have fun doing it, get that game, I highly recommend it. In fact you look forward to doing it again the next day. It is the best exercise. We were exhausted. After a nice shower, I made a pasta with meat sauce and we ended up watching Star Trek, which X had never seen. I saw some parts at a friend's house, but didn't pay too much attention. I really liked it. Didn't think I would, but the nerd in me approved it and gave it 4 stars out of 5.
Sunday, after we woke up I fixed my fantasy football team because it was a damn mess. Half my players are hurt and half of those are can't cut. Annoying. So then we started carving the pumpkins. Got the seeds out, gutted it, then took some meat out which I do intend to use for some pastry. This made the walls of the pumpkin thinner and the carving a lot easier. Well, be careful with that. This town is so damn hot all the time so pumpkins outside all day long. NOT a good idea. Then, the thinner the walls of the pumpkin are the sooner it will shrink. I might carve a couple of more this weekend as my pumpkins will be non existent by Halloween.
This is how our pumpkins looked that night. The first one is the one I carved and the second one is the one X did.
Then we went to dinner. I don't understand the whole dinner and a movie in that order. I say it should be a movie and dinner. First off I would probably fall asleep after having dinner and most likely drinks, then going to the theater. Full stomach in a cool dark place? Yeah, nap time for sure. If you watch the movie before dinner, you have at least that one topic of conversation. It's later in the evening so you can have your drinks and a light dinner. We went to a 5.45 pm show, right after work on Friday. We were out by 7 pm. Just in time for dinner.
First we went to Hayashi. I was looking forward to some entertainment, a few drinks and just a good ol time. They sit us down in an empty hibachi table. I'm thinking oh dear lord, it's never gonna fill up. Who knows how long we'll be here. Well we were not alone for long. A family of like 8 showed up with 2 kids and what looked like a 3 year old asleep in the dads arms. HA! Thanks but no thanks. I told X, sorry dood, we gotta go. That's probably the con in going to a restaurant that early. Kids eat early. So off we go to Red Lobster. I wanted fish or shrimp, which is why I chose Hayashi to begin with. Red Lobster was nice. Not a lot of people, room in the bar area and a championship baseball game on. Perfect. By the way, I have to say that X is the most patient man I've ever met. He always lets me choose the restaurant, even when I don't want to, because he knows that as a woman I'm "special", whatever that means. I'd like him to choose every now and then but he says he's happy going to Whataburger or Pizza Hut. So when I choose a burger, pizza or wing place, I mostly do it for him. I like it too, but I know it makes him happy.
** Sidebar - X just asked me what I was doing right now. He looks over my shoulder and sees that I'm blogging. He's like: "What you blogging about?" I told him that it was about our weekend. Not the greatest topic to some I know, but I'm getting tired of going to my blog and seeing tits. I needed something to push it down. He thought that was funny. I guess you had to be here. :p
Saturday we did nothing but watch movies and play WoW. We went shopping for pumpkins and window decorations for our little patio. We did some dancing with the a Wii game called Just Dance 2. You don't need to go to the gym. You wanna break into a sweat and have fun doing it, get that game, I highly recommend it. In fact you look forward to doing it again the next day. It is the best exercise. We were exhausted. After a nice shower, I made a pasta with meat sauce and we ended up watching Star Trek, which X had never seen. I saw some parts at a friend's house, but didn't pay too much attention. I really liked it. Didn't think I would, but the nerd in me approved it and gave it 4 stars out of 5.
Sunday, after we woke up I fixed my fantasy football team because it was a damn mess. Half my players are hurt and half of those are can't cut. Annoying. So then we started carving the pumpkins. Got the seeds out, gutted it, then took some meat out which I do intend to use for some pastry. This made the walls of the pumpkin thinner and the carving a lot easier. Well, be careful with that. This town is so damn hot all the time so pumpkins outside all day long. NOT a good idea. Then, the thinner the walls of the pumpkin are the sooner it will shrink. I might carve a couple of more this weekend as my pumpkins will be non existent by Halloween.
This is how our pumpkins looked that night. The first one is the one I carved and the second one is the one X did.
This is how they look tonight and it's barely Tuesday night....
They got old!! LOL. I still think they look bad ass. I guess, I'll put them inside during the day so they don't completely disappear by Sunday. The little ones were done by the kids. They're fine, as they were only painted on and not gutted. I'm sure I can use their meat as well when the holiday is over.
I was sad to see the weekend go. As Sunday night nears, I get sad because I remember that I have to go to work the next day and really, who likes to go to work? I love my home, my boyfriend, my son, my family and my pals. Then again, work makes me never take for granted my weekends. So I guess it's not so bad. I need it to be able to enjoy what I have now and a little more.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Local politicians gone nuts
This whole local political race is crazy. I haven't read up on all the candidates but from what I've seen, any moron can run for well... anything! I've only seen the Mayoral debate and that was just incredibly stupid. I didn't go to college and I don't use big words, but I consider myself smart enough to understand that I am not qualified to run for Mayor. Well, after watching this debate I realized that somebody forgot to tell these candidates that in order to run for any kind of office, you need to have taken at least ONE speech class in high school. Salinas is the only one who is somewhat capable of speaking in public. The rest REALLY suck. Then again, what can you expect when we had a president like George W.? Crazy. It's like this country is going backwards or something.
By the way, I tried looking for that video of the debate so I could post it here, but Pro 8 news didn't post it on their website. Sad because it's the best comedy I've seen in months.
And the supporters for all these politicians are nuts. Yesterday I was at a stop sign on Calle del Norte and Springfield and there were tons of people with signs. I usually ignore them, but I kept hearing a man scream, I mean he would stand out from the rest. I turn to the side and I see he's screaming at me! "VOTE VOTE!!! YEAH YOU!!" He said other things that I couldnt understand bc my window was rolled up but he looked like a monkey jumping up and down ranting AND pointing straight at me. I was like WTF? He had a Madeline sign up. Crazy old man.
Then theres that troll Arechiga. Bullying a blogger for not agreeing with him on trashing Belmares. That guy is stupid. He stalked this person until he got her information and then he posted it on his Facebook. Fucking prick. Imagine if Raul Salinas had to stalk everyone who talked shit about him or didn't agree with him, he'd be wasting so much more time in bullshit. This guy gets someone who disagrees with him and he goes fucking nuts. Creep.
It's all the same though. Some of these fools get elected and they all do the same thing. STEAL. ALL OF THEM. Bunch of thieves. They don't do a goddamn thing for any of us. Well some do, for their rich friends. So I usually vote for the person opposing the one I dislike the most, or the one who I think deserves to live the life of a king for a while.
One thing is for sure though, running for office really brings out the UGLY from most candidates. I don't understand why you cant win a battle by offering solutions and making sense rather than be an ass and waste time investigating your opponent on his faults, then blowing them up and exposing it on ads. What a waste of fucking time and money!! Politicians for the most part are just UGLY people. I used to think that being political meant that you were smart and would debate your ideas in an intelligent way. Now you have your Sarah Palins and George W. Bush's and a whole bunch of morons that follow them and VOTE for them!! And they don't even make sense! Then you have your uglies who use the opponent's mistakes and instead of using them intelligently on a debate, they use them on ads. Showing their ugly. Their greed. Local politicians are the worst though.
Sigh.
I know this is everywhere in the country, but I'm just really bored of this place. Maybe one day I can finally leave.
By the way, I tried looking for that video of the debate so I could post it here, but Pro 8 news didn't post it on their website. Sad because it's the best comedy I've seen in months.
And the supporters for all these politicians are nuts. Yesterday I was at a stop sign on Calle del Norte and Springfield and there were tons of people with signs. I usually ignore them, but I kept hearing a man scream, I mean he would stand out from the rest. I turn to the side and I see he's screaming at me! "VOTE VOTE!!! YEAH YOU!!" He said other things that I couldnt understand bc my window was rolled up but he looked like a monkey jumping up and down ranting AND pointing straight at me. I was like WTF? He had a Madeline sign up. Crazy old man.
Then theres that troll Arechiga. Bullying a blogger for not agreeing with him on trashing Belmares. That guy is stupid. He stalked this person until he got her information and then he posted it on his Facebook. Fucking prick. Imagine if Raul Salinas had to stalk everyone who talked shit about him or didn't agree with him, he'd be wasting so much more time in bullshit. This guy gets someone who disagrees with him and he goes fucking nuts. Creep.
It's all the same though. Some of these fools get elected and they all do the same thing. STEAL. ALL OF THEM. Bunch of thieves. They don't do a goddamn thing for any of us. Well some do, for their rich friends. So I usually vote for the person opposing the one I dislike the most, or the one who I think deserves to live the life of a king for a while.
One thing is for sure though, running for office really brings out the UGLY from most candidates. I don't understand why you cant win a battle by offering solutions and making sense rather than be an ass and waste time investigating your opponent on his faults, then blowing them up and exposing it on ads. What a waste of fucking time and money!! Politicians for the most part are just UGLY people. I used to think that being political meant that you were smart and would debate your ideas in an intelligent way. Now you have your Sarah Palins and George W. Bush's and a whole bunch of morons that follow them and VOTE for them!! And they don't even make sense! Then you have your uglies who use the opponent's mistakes and instead of using them intelligently on a debate, they use them on ads. Showing their ugly. Their greed. Local politicians are the worst though.
Sigh.
I know this is everywhere in the country, but I'm just really bored of this place. Maybe one day I can finally leave.
Monday, October 4, 2010
USE CASH!
And here I thought that I'd be dormant on blogging for a while. Guess not.
I can't believe what restaurants and other businesses are putting the public through. For some reason they put in a charge twice to secure the bill or they charge the first charge without the tip and then again with the tip. They retrieve only one in the end, but they freeze your funds for at least 3 days. So unfair because it's YOUR money and you can't use it.
The bank says that it is a way for businesses to protect themselves. Maybe so. OR it could be a way to play with your money. I really don't know how exactly it works but even if the restaurant can't touch it either, it is ridiculous. In this day and age there should already be something more accurate than this bullshit. It screws the client no matter what. It is of no benefit to us whatsoever. It sucks that the government keeps telling us to turn the wheels of the economy by spending as much as we can outside our home, especially in restaurants. How can we do this if they screw us this way. Why should I go out of my way and go to an atm to take out cash just because of their thieving ways? It should be illegal.
I have had several different experiences of this kind. These are the 3 that I remember at the moment:
1. Gas station - Not sure but I think it was a Valero. Paid outside with my card. Used 10 dollars only as that week I was running low on funds. I usually check my bank every day and luckily this was one of these days. To my surprise, I see a pending charge of 50 dollars plus the 10 dollar charge on my card. I'm like WTF? So I call the store and the lady (very nice lady) tells me that I need to call the 1800 number as they have nothing to do with those charges. They use their cashier but it's the gas company's card policies so I have to call them. I get the 1800 number and call them. The lady that answered very unsympathetically told me that it's the way it is, they have to protect themselves from fraud and if I don't like it to use cash next time. That there was nothing I could do but that it would clear soon, so not to worry about it. I felt the racism in her tone. I felt like she was telling me that they needed to protect themselves from thieving Mexicans like me. So I told her very politely, "I wanted to buy 10 dollars of your prestigious gasoline, not 50. If I wanted 50, I would've charged 50 and had I known this would've happened, I would not have used your company, there should be a sign warning people about this." She tried to interrupt telling me the money would come back to me; so I told her that it didn't matter because until I got that money back, I would starve since that's pretty much all I had left. It's MY money and they're taking it from me, they're taking away MY food. If I wanted to save 50 dollars and use them 3 days later, I could do that on my own. I don't need to be forced into something I don't want. I told her that I wanted to talk to a manager and that the customer service she was giving me sucked and that I worked in media and this could be bad for them if it go out, at least in the town I lived in. She told me she'd get a manager. She put me on hold and left me there for 15 minutes until I decided to hang up. The next day the hold was gone. So I KNOW they CAN release it as soon as 24 hours. 50 dollars to make sure you have funds, even though I only charged 10 was just ridiculous. They either changed gas companies at Valero or they changed their policy because I charged there again (on purpose) and it hasn't happened yet.
2. Cosmos Bar & Grill - Now don't get me wrong, this is a very decent place. The drinks are nice and the food is very tasty. A little on the pricey side but worth it. That is until they screwed us by charging us twice. Well, not really twice, they froze the amount we owed without the tip and they charged the amount with the tip. Bear in mind this was on a Friday so all weekend long we had 2 pending charges, the correct and the incorrect one. This was, of course, unbeknownst to me as I had perfect calculations of how much money we had left (which wasn't much). It wasn't until we tried to charge something with that particular card, something stupid like lunch, that we realized something was wrong because it didn't go through (I purposely have that card arranged to not make any overdraft charges). We used the backup card thinking it was the restaurant's mistake. I go online to our bank account to see that OH surprise, Cosmos fucked us. I was a bit miffed about this because being a party of more than six, we automatically got charged with the tip, so why did they go ahead and make both charges? It made no sense. X called Cosmos to check WTF happened and they told him that it happens sometimes. BLAH BLAH, same story. Well, the charge with the tip (the correct one) went through late Monday afternoon, but the other charge didn't come back to us until Thursday morning. Almost a WEEK!! TOTAL BULLSHIT. I swore never to use a card at a bar again. ANY bar.
3. Stingray Alley restaurant - PURE STUPIDITY. We went this past Saturday to take the kids to this place. We had been there before and they have decent food, but it's the place that makes it nice to eat there. The place is decorated like Daytona, drag race, etc.. (not too familiar with the sport, so I really wouldn't know a correct title for it). Beautiful place. You can tell they really invested a good chunk of money into it. They don't serve alcohol because they don't have a license, so we knew with no temptations for a beer it would come out cheaper. And it did. Or so we thought. The bill for a party of 5 came out to 43 dollars so imagine my surprise when I saw 2 charges pending one for 43 and the other one for 433.00. WTF????????? Of course I saw this until Sunday when the place isn't even open. So today I called my bank first thing and they told me that I needed to fix it with them. So THEY fuck up and I need to fix it. Jeez. Today I had a training I needed to attend at work so X had to take care of it. I believe they were doing everything they could to drop that charge immediately. I'll check the bank in a bit to see if they have. I, fortunately, have some money saved up and I transferred some to make sure the rent check wouldn't bounce. But what if I didn't have that backup? I'm sure the restaurant would've paid the bank charges and my landlord if it came down to it; because if they didn't I would have involved the police. Still, most people don't have savings or emergency money backup. I was also very pissed off about the way they handled it. They KNEW what happened and they said NOTHING and we kept charging that day. It is a known fact that most banks will let the big check in and let the small charges follow, that would've been at least 150 extra in overdraft charges. I think it was very unprofessional of the waitress not to inform us. According to the manager when X spoke to him, he remembered what had happened and he said that he really thought it hadn't gone through, since they immediately retrieved it. Well, apparently they need to get some sort of training on it because they have no idea how their own banking works. And they should.
So to sum this up, I will try to use cash more. That sucks because I like using the card. It keeps me organized. It allows me to see exactly where my money is going and I like that. I have more control this way. I'll save the card usage for grocery and apparel shopping; at least as much as I can. Just be careful out there. You might want to ask what the policies are before you swipe your card next time.
I can't believe what restaurants and other businesses are putting the public through. For some reason they put in a charge twice to secure the bill or they charge the first charge without the tip and then again with the tip. They retrieve only one in the end, but they freeze your funds for at least 3 days. So unfair because it's YOUR money and you can't use it.
The bank says that it is a way for businesses to protect themselves. Maybe so. OR it could be a way to play with your money. I really don't know how exactly it works but even if the restaurant can't touch it either, it is ridiculous. In this day and age there should already be something more accurate than this bullshit. It screws the client no matter what. It is of no benefit to us whatsoever. It sucks that the government keeps telling us to turn the wheels of the economy by spending as much as we can outside our home, especially in restaurants. How can we do this if they screw us this way. Why should I go out of my way and go to an atm to take out cash just because of their thieving ways? It should be illegal.
I have had several different experiences of this kind. These are the 3 that I remember at the moment:
1. Gas station - Not sure but I think it was a Valero. Paid outside with my card. Used 10 dollars only as that week I was running low on funds. I usually check my bank every day and luckily this was one of these days. To my surprise, I see a pending charge of 50 dollars plus the 10 dollar charge on my card. I'm like WTF? So I call the store and the lady (very nice lady) tells me that I need to call the 1800 number as they have nothing to do with those charges. They use their cashier but it's the gas company's card policies so I have to call them. I get the 1800 number and call them. The lady that answered very unsympathetically told me that it's the way it is, they have to protect themselves from fraud and if I don't like it to use cash next time. That there was nothing I could do but that it would clear soon, so not to worry about it. I felt the racism in her tone. I felt like she was telling me that they needed to protect themselves from thieving Mexicans like me. So I told her very politely, "I wanted to buy 10 dollars of your prestigious gasoline, not 50. If I wanted 50, I would've charged 50 and had I known this would've happened, I would not have used your company, there should be a sign warning people about this." She tried to interrupt telling me the money would come back to me; so I told her that it didn't matter because until I got that money back, I would starve since that's pretty much all I had left. It's MY money and they're taking it from me, they're taking away MY food. If I wanted to save 50 dollars and use them 3 days later, I could do that on my own. I don't need to be forced into something I don't want. I told her that I wanted to talk to a manager and that the customer service she was giving me sucked and that I worked in media and this could be bad for them if it go out, at least in the town I lived in. She told me she'd get a manager. She put me on hold and left me there for 15 minutes until I decided to hang up. The next day the hold was gone. So I KNOW they CAN release it as soon as 24 hours. 50 dollars to make sure you have funds, even though I only charged 10 was just ridiculous. They either changed gas companies at Valero or they changed their policy because I charged there again (on purpose) and it hasn't happened yet.
2. Cosmos Bar & Grill - Now don't get me wrong, this is a very decent place. The drinks are nice and the food is very tasty. A little on the pricey side but worth it. That is until they screwed us by charging us twice. Well, not really twice, they froze the amount we owed without the tip and they charged the amount with the tip. Bear in mind this was on a Friday so all weekend long we had 2 pending charges, the correct and the incorrect one. This was, of course, unbeknownst to me as I had perfect calculations of how much money we had left (which wasn't much). It wasn't until we tried to charge something with that particular card, something stupid like lunch, that we realized something was wrong because it didn't go through (I purposely have that card arranged to not make any overdraft charges). We used the backup card thinking it was the restaurant's mistake. I go online to our bank account to see that OH surprise, Cosmos fucked us. I was a bit miffed about this because being a party of more than six, we automatically got charged with the tip, so why did they go ahead and make both charges? It made no sense. X called Cosmos to check WTF happened and they told him that it happens sometimes. BLAH BLAH, same story. Well, the charge with the tip (the correct one) went through late Monday afternoon, but the other charge didn't come back to us until Thursday morning. Almost a WEEK!! TOTAL BULLSHIT. I swore never to use a card at a bar again. ANY bar.
3. Stingray Alley restaurant - PURE STUPIDITY. We went this past Saturday to take the kids to this place. We had been there before and they have decent food, but it's the place that makes it nice to eat there. The place is decorated like Daytona, drag race, etc.. (not too familiar with the sport, so I really wouldn't know a correct title for it). Beautiful place. You can tell they really invested a good chunk of money into it. They don't serve alcohol because they don't have a license, so we knew with no temptations for a beer it would come out cheaper. And it did. Or so we thought. The bill for a party of 5 came out to 43 dollars so imagine my surprise when I saw 2 charges pending one for 43 and the other one for 433.00. WTF????????? Of course I saw this until Sunday when the place isn't even open. So today I called my bank first thing and they told me that I needed to fix it with them. So THEY fuck up and I need to fix it. Jeez. Today I had a training I needed to attend at work so X had to take care of it. I believe they were doing everything they could to drop that charge immediately. I'll check the bank in a bit to see if they have. I, fortunately, have some money saved up and I transferred some to make sure the rent check wouldn't bounce. But what if I didn't have that backup? I'm sure the restaurant would've paid the bank charges and my landlord if it came down to it; because if they didn't I would have involved the police. Still, most people don't have savings or emergency money backup. I was also very pissed off about the way they handled it. They KNEW what happened and they said NOTHING and we kept charging that day. It is a known fact that most banks will let the big check in and let the small charges follow, that would've been at least 150 extra in overdraft charges. I think it was very unprofessional of the waitress not to inform us. According to the manager when X spoke to him, he remembered what had happened and he said that he really thought it hadn't gone through, since they immediately retrieved it. Well, apparently they need to get some sort of training on it because they have no idea how their own banking works. And they should.
So to sum this up, I will try to use cash more. That sucks because I like using the card. It keeps me organized. It allows me to see exactly where my money is going and I like that. I have more control this way. I'll save the card usage for grocery and apparel shopping; at least as much as I can. Just be careful out there. You might want to ask what the policies are before you swipe your card next time.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Nice or creepy?
There's a sweet lady that comes here every week to talk to her case worker, drop off her job search, get gas vouchers, etc.. Very nice lady. Very quiet and shy, but nice.
In the 6 months that I have been here, she has seen the shit I go through. She hardly talks to me but she has always been polite.
She calls every now and then and I give her information on what's going on with traffic, if it's going to take long, for appointments, etc..(just like I do with any other client).
She seems to have recently taken a shine to me. And it's weird because I have never sensed anything weird about her, except for the fact that she whispers a lot. But not creepy, more like shy.
So I get a call one day from her and she tells me that she really likes me. That she always thought of me as a very nice girl and she has a gift for me. I told her thank you and gifts aren't necessary but she insists that it's just a little something because she likes the way I treat people. So I said ok, not really thinkging about it too much. This was on Friday.
Come Monday, she walks in and she hands me a Victoria's secret bag. I was like, wtf, did she buy me underwear? But no. I saw a very nice necklace and earrings. Very cute color. And a bag of Dove dark chocolates. She called me back later that day and asked me if I had liked it. I told her yes and I thanked her again.
**Sidebar- There's a lady here that keeps talking to me. And she's always been nice to me but I am in no mood to entertain. She's telling me her problems (like I don't have any right now). She's giving me a headache. To make matters worse, people keep calling and walking in, but not enough to keep me busy and mindless. Oh thank God Melissa called her in already. **
Anyway, a few days go by and she brings me really cute earrings that I can really use with almost everything and they kinda go with a bracelet I own.
I'm flattered but at the same time a bit concerned because I'm just not used to people JUST being nice. Especially not in this place. And she has never given me a bad vibe of any kind.
I gave her my thanks and told her that she really doesn't need to be so nice. I am merely doing my job, but that I appreciate it.
So I have to ask. Is she just extra nice or is it just plain creepy?
In the 6 months that I have been here, she has seen the shit I go through. She hardly talks to me but she has always been polite.
She calls every now and then and I give her information on what's going on with traffic, if it's going to take long, for appointments, etc..(just like I do with any other client).
She seems to have recently taken a shine to me. And it's weird because I have never sensed anything weird about her, except for the fact that she whispers a lot. But not creepy, more like shy.
So I get a call one day from her and she tells me that she really likes me. That she always thought of me as a very nice girl and she has a gift for me. I told her thank you and gifts aren't necessary but she insists that it's just a little something because she likes the way I treat people. So I said ok, not really thinkging about it too much. This was on Friday.
Come Monday, she walks in and she hands me a Victoria's secret bag. I was like, wtf, did she buy me underwear? But no. I saw a very nice necklace and earrings. Very cute color. And a bag of Dove dark chocolates. She called me back later that day and asked me if I had liked it. I told her yes and I thanked her again.
**Sidebar- There's a lady here that keeps talking to me. And she's always been nice to me but I am in no mood to entertain. She's telling me her problems (like I don't have any right now). She's giving me a headache. To make matters worse, people keep calling and walking in, but not enough to keep me busy and mindless. Oh thank God Melissa called her in already. **
Anyway, a few days go by and she brings me really cute earrings that I can really use with almost everything and they kinda go with a bracelet I own.
I'm flattered but at the same time a bit concerned because I'm just not used to people JUST being nice. Especially not in this place. And she has never given me a bad vibe of any kind.
I gave her my thanks and told her that she really doesn't need to be so nice. I am merely doing my job, but that I appreciate it.
So I have to ask. Is she just extra nice or is it just plain creepy?
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I won't back down....
I am listening to Pandora and this song from Tom Petty came on and because I had no clue what to name this blog, I named it that.
So I know that I can get myself in trouble more often than not because of things I say. I can be hurtful sometimes. But I am probably one of the most honest people you will ever meet. And I mean well. I really do. I don't have an evil bone in me. Ok, maybe 1 or 2. But not vicious. Just human I guess.
I don't give a shit what people think of me. Yet, my parents, mainly my mother, still have a certain hold of me. And I say certain because I still do as I please, but they always find a way to make me feel shitty. I seriously don't understand what their problem is. And it's not fighting or anything, they just say the wrong things. I had a talk with them this last time and I don't think they paid too much attention. My mother will never admit she's wrong. Not to her children anyway. Maybe next time when I walk out on her while she's yapping her bullshit, she'll get it. Nah, she will probably turn it around and make it all about her... hmm... sounds familiar. Hey, at least I recognize it when I fuck up. I've learned how to apologize when I used to never, ever do it. It was really tough for me to change that about me. I think I'm more humble than she is.
Maybe my parents have never seen me this happy. I was always a bitter sarcastic bitch. YES, more than I am today. Even though it wasn't all bad, I was in a marriage I didn't want to be in. I was just not happy. It wasn't fulfilling. For a long time I lived the way everyone else expected me to. Sure, some people may think I still got away with a bunch of shit, but believe me, I WAS unhappy. When I decided to leave, I stepped on some people and I wish there would've been an easier way but there never is. I did what I could with what I had. And like I've said before, you have to be selfish in life sometimes to achieve your goals. I think my parents can't understand that. My mother is just jealous of anything I like or love that has nothing to do with her. She was like that with my ex-husband, my friends, my job, etc. And now that I think about it, she was like that with ALL my friends. Yeah, even the ones that were family. I remember when I was married, she said my ex-husband was a drunk and so were all my friends. I used to hang out with my dad's cousin a lot when I recently got divorced. She didn't like that either, said we drank too much. Then I moved in with X and even though I hardly go out anymore, she thinks I drink a lot too. Maybe she wants me to drink with her. I dunno. But I'm tired of her shit.
She's a pain in the ass but I tolerate it, because she's my mom and I do love her. But then when I do go see her and my dad, they both always have something to say. Something negative. Why does there always need to be a lecture? Ugh. I mean, even though I am not there every day, she will have to learn that people have lives that don't include them. Sad maybe, but parents do become our sub-life. She asks what am I going to do if one of them dies and the other becomes sick and/or senile. Dude, you're like 56, that's not gonna happen anytime soon. We'll figure it out if it ever does. Guilt will not work on me. I'm selfish, sorry. After all this, I told her I might move to Austin one day. I'll start going to school here but maybe I'll finish there, I dunno. She didn't like that either. What does she want? For me to be on standby in case she needs me? She's nuts. That's just no way to live. I mean, for all we know I may get sick one day and what? Am I going to look to see who is going to put their shit aside so they can help me? No. That's just irresponsible. Sorry mom, but I am not gonna be stuck here all my life just because one day you may become ill. With any luck, I would have finished my school and have a decent paying job so that I can afford to bring you home with me and I can pay for a palomita. And if I can't afford that, I'll figure it out then. But for now, shut up. This is my only life and I intend to live it.
Enough of my parents.
I didn't write this so people understand me better or praise me for being such a bad ass. I just felt like putting it out there so people that are weak know that just because you whine and give guilt trips, it won't get you anywhere. Not with people like us. So stop wasting your time.
So I know that I can get myself in trouble more often than not because of things I say. I can be hurtful sometimes. But I am probably one of the most honest people you will ever meet. And I mean well. I really do. I don't have an evil bone in me. Ok, maybe 1 or 2. But not vicious. Just human I guess.
I don't give a shit what people think of me. Yet, my parents, mainly my mother, still have a certain hold of me. And I say certain because I still do as I please, but they always find a way to make me feel shitty. I seriously don't understand what their problem is. And it's not fighting or anything, they just say the wrong things. I had a talk with them this last time and I don't think they paid too much attention. My mother will never admit she's wrong. Not to her children anyway. Maybe next time when I walk out on her while she's yapping her bullshit, she'll get it. Nah, she will probably turn it around and make it all about her... hmm... sounds familiar. Hey, at least I recognize it when I fuck up. I've learned how to apologize when I used to never, ever do it. It was really tough for me to change that about me. I think I'm more humble than she is.
Maybe my parents have never seen me this happy. I was always a bitter sarcastic bitch. YES, more than I am today. Even though it wasn't all bad, I was in a marriage I didn't want to be in. I was just not happy. It wasn't fulfilling. For a long time I lived the way everyone else expected me to. Sure, some people may think I still got away with a bunch of shit, but believe me, I WAS unhappy. When I decided to leave, I stepped on some people and I wish there would've been an easier way but there never is. I did what I could with what I had. And like I've said before, you have to be selfish in life sometimes to achieve your goals. I think my parents can't understand that. My mother is just jealous of anything I like or love that has nothing to do with her. She was like that with my ex-husband, my friends, my job, etc. And now that I think about it, she was like that with ALL my friends. Yeah, even the ones that were family. I remember when I was married, she said my ex-husband was a drunk and so were all my friends. I used to hang out with my dad's cousin a lot when I recently got divorced. She didn't like that either, said we drank too much. Then I moved in with X and even though I hardly go out anymore, she thinks I drink a lot too. Maybe she wants me to drink with her. I dunno. But I'm tired of her shit.
She's a pain in the ass but I tolerate it, because she's my mom and I do love her. But then when I do go see her and my dad, they both always have something to say. Something negative. Why does there always need to be a lecture? Ugh. I mean, even though I am not there every day, she will have to learn that people have lives that don't include them. Sad maybe, but parents do become our sub-life. She asks what am I going to do if one of them dies and the other becomes sick and/or senile. Dude, you're like 56, that's not gonna happen anytime soon. We'll figure it out if it ever does. Guilt will not work on me. I'm selfish, sorry. After all this, I told her I might move to Austin one day. I'll start going to school here but maybe I'll finish there, I dunno. She didn't like that either. What does she want? For me to be on standby in case she needs me? She's nuts. That's just no way to live. I mean, for all we know I may get sick one day and what? Am I going to look to see who is going to put their shit aside so they can help me? No. That's just irresponsible. Sorry mom, but I am not gonna be stuck here all my life just because one day you may become ill. With any luck, I would have finished my school and have a decent paying job so that I can afford to bring you home with me and I can pay for a palomita. And if I can't afford that, I'll figure it out then. But for now, shut up. This is my only life and I intend to live it.
Enough of my parents.
I didn't write this so people understand me better or praise me for being such a bad ass. I just felt like putting it out there so people that are weak know that just because you whine and give guilt trips, it won't get you anywhere. Not with people like us. So stop wasting your time.
Friday, September 24, 2010
WOW
As if things weren't hectic around here already.
The person in charge of giving out vouchers, gas cards, gift cards, etc... quit last night. Now someone else had to take over and another person is absent. AND it's Friday. Oh Lord it's gonna be a good one today. Ugh. I hope it storms today and everyone just stays home.
Speaking of another wow, I logged into WoW last night and tried leveling up my druid. I say tried because I only did one instance and my dps was crap and like I mentioned to X, I LIKE to quest. For some reason I just can't find excitement in it anymore. Maybe because I already did it? I find going into the Nexus over and over again just fucking lame. And questing could be ok, but for some reason I just feel like I'm doing something wrong. This whole gear/dps thing just killed it for me. I know it is very useful to know your gear and stuff, but before I used to just follow the quests without worrying too much about gear and any quest greens or blues i'd get were awesome. Now it's like, I need something crafted, I need to run this instance, I need my dps to be higher... I'm a fucking level 73 for fucks sake, who cares? Yet I still do because that's what I'm used to seeing nowadays. Ugh. It just doesnt do it for me anymore.
I hope cataclysm is the hair of the dog for the very long hangover WoW has been lately.
The person in charge of giving out vouchers, gas cards, gift cards, etc... quit last night. Now someone else had to take over and another person is absent. AND it's Friday. Oh Lord it's gonna be a good one today. Ugh. I hope it storms today and everyone just stays home.
Speaking of another wow, I logged into WoW last night and tried leveling up my druid. I say tried because I only did one instance and my dps was crap and like I mentioned to X, I LIKE to quest. For some reason I just can't find excitement in it anymore. Maybe because I already did it? I find going into the Nexus over and over again just fucking lame. And questing could be ok, but for some reason I just feel like I'm doing something wrong. This whole gear/dps thing just killed it for me. I know it is very useful to know your gear and stuff, but before I used to just follow the quests without worrying too much about gear and any quest greens or blues i'd get were awesome. Now it's like, I need something crafted, I need to run this instance, I need my dps to be higher... I'm a fucking level 73 for fucks sake, who cares? Yet I still do because that's what I'm used to seeing nowadays. Ugh. It just doesnt do it for me anymore.
I hope cataclysm is the hair of the dog for the very long hangover WoW has been lately.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Slow day
I really don't have many options here at work to entertain myself. Almost everything cool is blocked. Thankfully, I have my blog to entertain me.
Fuck. My mind is blank. This is not going to be a good blog. I'm just ranting.
So I'm seriously thinking of going back to school. So is half of the country, I know. I need to plan it carefully though. X says he will carry me but I just don't know... I have always depended on myself.
**Sidebar**Ugh, this thing doesn't automatically correct mispelled words, I'm so spoiled. Which is funny because I just said I'm independent. Apparently not when it comes to blogging. I'm a slave to auto corrections. On the other hand, auto correction programs put shit in your sentences that don't even make sense. So, you have to double check anyway. I still depend on it though. I know, I'm lame. **
Going back to the school thing. I even thought about those stupid trainings, but they just always felt like they were a big fraud. Now that I work where I work, I KNOW they are. (Yes Issac, I know you always said it). People finish the "training", get their certification and then they soon realize that they owe the "school" like 10k, even though they applied for financial aid. In the middle of it, you realize that what you got was a loan. For what? a certificate? You might as well get an associates if you're willing to get into debt that much. Because you can get it in less time? It's a bunch of shit. Just don't do it. Invest your time in regular college, even if it takes longer. This place does help financially with those trainings. But even then, you finish and they STILL won't hire you bc there's not that much demand. Not only that, but apparently they don't even train you correctly. I heard a story about this doctor who hired a phlebotomist who was finacially assisted by our company and the guy called very dissapointed because the girl had no clue as to how to go about drawing blood. WTF??? That's just crazy. What the hell did she spend her time in while in school? Sigh.
So college it is. I don't know when. I'm sure it will be as soon as Rob leaves for college himself. Everything will change, I know it. First off, I'm probably going to freak out when Rob leaves. As much as I have prepared myself mentally, I am pretty sure I'm gonna need pills for the transition. On the positive side, he seems very excited. He already has a group of friends that are also going to College Station and they are looking for a place. He's gonna suffer, but he'll figure it out. Secondly, we will most likely move from that apartment to a smaller place since I will probably need to downgrade to a part time job. I'm used to my nice apartment, but fuck it, sacrifices need to be made and a few years later, I'm confident that we will have an even nicer place.
I really need this. I know I am very experienced in almost every administrative and management field out there, but nobody gives me the credit I deserve. So I am getting MY credit and shoving it up their asses. If not in this rotting town, then in another one. And it's not just that, I want this. I feel incomplete without it and I've been procrastinating about it too long already. I'm doing this.
I kind of feel like I finally have a plan. I've always just done whatever I felt like doing and gotten away with it. Mostly because I am not an evil person. I've been selfish most of my life but for the most part, I have only been sorry a handful of times. I believe that you can be selfless when it really counts, but you don't have to be all the time. And if you don't think and do for yourself in this life, nobody else will.
Barely 4 PM huh? Damn it. I was hoping it was closer to 5. This blog is too long already though. I'll write another one if it gets boring again.
Fuck. My mind is blank. This is not going to be a good blog. I'm just ranting.
So I'm seriously thinking of going back to school. So is half of the country, I know. I need to plan it carefully though. X says he will carry me but I just don't know... I have always depended on myself.
**Sidebar**Ugh, this thing doesn't automatically correct mispelled words, I'm so spoiled. Which is funny because I just said I'm independent. Apparently not when it comes to blogging. I'm a slave to auto corrections. On the other hand, auto correction programs put shit in your sentences that don't even make sense. So, you have to double check anyway. I still depend on it though. I know, I'm lame. **
Going back to the school thing. I even thought about those stupid trainings, but they just always felt like they were a big fraud. Now that I work where I work, I KNOW they are. (Yes Issac, I know you always said it). People finish the "training", get their certification and then they soon realize that they owe the "school" like 10k, even though they applied for financial aid. In the middle of it, you realize that what you got was a loan. For what? a certificate? You might as well get an associates if you're willing to get into debt that much. Because you can get it in less time? It's a bunch of shit. Just don't do it. Invest your time in regular college, even if it takes longer. This place does help financially with those trainings. But even then, you finish and they STILL won't hire you bc there's not that much demand. Not only that, but apparently they don't even train you correctly. I heard a story about this doctor who hired a phlebotomist who was finacially assisted by our company and the guy called very dissapointed because the girl had no clue as to how to go about drawing blood. WTF??? That's just crazy. What the hell did she spend her time in while in school? Sigh.
So college it is. I don't know when. I'm sure it will be as soon as Rob leaves for college himself. Everything will change, I know it. First off, I'm probably going to freak out when Rob leaves. As much as I have prepared myself mentally, I am pretty sure I'm gonna need pills for the transition. On the positive side, he seems very excited. He already has a group of friends that are also going to College Station and they are looking for a place. He's gonna suffer, but he'll figure it out. Secondly, we will most likely move from that apartment to a smaller place since I will probably need to downgrade to a part time job. I'm used to my nice apartment, but fuck it, sacrifices need to be made and a few years later, I'm confident that we will have an even nicer place.
I really need this. I know I am very experienced in almost every administrative and management field out there, but nobody gives me the credit I deserve. So I am getting MY credit and shoving it up their asses. If not in this rotting town, then in another one. And it's not just that, I want this. I feel incomplete without it and I've been procrastinating about it too long already. I'm doing this.
I kind of feel like I finally have a plan. I've always just done whatever I felt like doing and gotten away with it. Mostly because I am not an evil person. I've been selfish most of my life but for the most part, I have only been sorry a handful of times. I believe that you can be selfless when it really counts, but you don't have to be all the time. And if you don't think and do for yourself in this life, nobody else will.
Barely 4 PM huh? Damn it. I was hoping it was closer to 5. This blog is too long already though. I'll write another one if it gets boring again.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Summer!! Don't go yet!
I went shopping this weekend and all I saw was yellow and orange colors. I see the word harvest, Halloween, Autumn everywhere. Now don't get me wrong, I really do love this time of year. Halloween is my favorite "holiday".
I just don't think I am ready to let go of summer just yet. I refuse! Laredo is usually summer like at least until the end of September. I need a tan. I was still a bit hopeful I could go to the beach. :( I've been going to the gym every other day and for what? These days only bring fatness to people. Candy, cupcakes, pies, hot chocolate, lattes and cappuccinos. FATNESS!
Sigh. It's been raining for days. I just needed Saturday or Sunday to tan. I hope next weekend I can catch some sun.
On the upside of all of this, I can't wait to bake stuff. This is the time I make TONS of food. I follow Paula Dean on twitter and she posted a link with a bunch of apple recipes. There's an apple cake with my name on it. Also, I am curious about a cinnamon apple meatloaf. I'm not too sure if I like the idea or not.
Next weekend is my sister's birthday. Well, her birthday is Thursday but she's having a party this weekend. I hope she tells her friends not to take kids. If kids go, I won't last long there. I love my sister but last time I went to a party of hers, it was a Xmas party and OMG the kids that went were HORRIBLE children. I don't think the parents know about a little something called education. They wrote on her walls, the broke some cds, they were making too much noise, like animals. I can't stand spoiled and bad behaved children. Some people should just not be allowed to breed. Anyway, I'm going to her party and hopefully it's just for adults. We'll see.
It's raining again. Pouring actually. I love it but I hope I can get just a couple of hours of sun next weekend. Then it can rain again. And then I'll welcome harvest with open arms. :)
I just don't think I am ready to let go of summer just yet. I refuse! Laredo is usually summer like at least until the end of September. I need a tan. I was still a bit hopeful I could go to the beach. :( I've been going to the gym every other day and for what? These days only bring fatness to people. Candy, cupcakes, pies, hot chocolate, lattes and cappuccinos. FATNESS!
Sigh. It's been raining for days. I just needed Saturday or Sunday to tan. I hope next weekend I can catch some sun.
On the upside of all of this, I can't wait to bake stuff. This is the time I make TONS of food. I follow Paula Dean on twitter and she posted a link with a bunch of apple recipes. There's an apple cake with my name on it. Also, I am curious about a cinnamon apple meatloaf. I'm not too sure if I like the idea or not.
Next weekend is my sister's birthday. Well, her birthday is Thursday but she's having a party this weekend. I hope she tells her friends not to take kids. If kids go, I won't last long there. I love my sister but last time I went to a party of hers, it was a Xmas party and OMG the kids that went were HORRIBLE children. I don't think the parents know about a little something called education. They wrote on her walls, the broke some cds, they were making too much noise, like animals. I can't stand spoiled and bad behaved children. Some people should just not be allowed to breed. Anyway, I'm going to her party and hopefully it's just for adults. We'll see.
It's raining again. Pouring actually. I love it but I hope I can get just a couple of hours of sun next weekend. Then it can rain again. And then I'll welcome harvest with open arms. :)
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Saturday afternoon
Went out last night with some friends, had a nice dinner with wine and then we went to have possibly the most delicious cocktails ever....cucumber martinis. It's like eating cucumbers with lime and chile with a buzz. Just perfect. Drank too much though. Still, woke up kinda early today, but didn't leave my bed until 9.30 or so.... ok more like 10.
Been craving steak and eggs for a while, so I went to the store and got some ribeyes. Sooo delicious! I don't think I can eat again for another 8 hours, which is fine because I'm staying home tonight and playing video games with a couple of friends. I'm thinking of baking cupcakes or brownies, or both.
I'm happy not to be moving at all. I'm so lazy today. I'm going to take my son out to buy him something for his bday. I know it's like a week and a half late but he always has plans. So today is the day. I've had money saved up for him for 2 weeks. Do you know how tough that is?
So this should be fun but short. He is after all a male. Males can't shop as much as we do. I really don't feel like being out there too much either. I am totally enjoying this. X has jazzy music in the background while he plays WoW and I'm laying down next to him just surfing the net. It's going to hurt to get up.
Been craving steak and eggs for a while, so I went to the store and got some ribeyes. Sooo delicious! I don't think I can eat again for another 8 hours, which is fine because I'm staying home tonight and playing video games with a couple of friends. I'm thinking of baking cupcakes or brownies, or both.
I'm happy not to be moving at all. I'm so lazy today. I'm going to take my son out to buy him something for his bday. I know it's like a week and a half late but he always has plans. So today is the day. I've had money saved up for him for 2 weeks. Do you know how tough that is?
So this should be fun but short. He is after all a male. Males can't shop as much as we do. I really don't feel like being out there too much either. I am totally enjoying this. X has jazzy music in the background while he plays WoW and I'm laying down next to him just surfing the net. It's going to hurt to get up.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
I changed my title
It used to be Life, opinions, the world... But it sounded way too serious... Like I was going to blog boring crap all the time.
In reality, this blog is basically just my brains throwing up on the net. Rants and raves if you may. I try my best not to make it boring.
Why pizza time? It's like a metaphor for break time. We use it in WoW all the time. Break time, smoke time, snack time, pee time, whatever time... 15 -20 minutes of enjoyable time = Pizza time. (Yes, pee time is enjoyable too)
That is all.
In reality, this blog is basically just my brains throwing up on the net. Rants and raves if you may. I try my best not to make it boring.
Why pizza time? It's like a metaphor for break time. We use it in WoW all the time. Break time, smoke time, snack time, pee time, whatever time... 15 -20 minutes of enjoyable time = Pizza time. (Yes, pee time is enjoyable too)
That is all.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Test
I'm really having fun with all these net tools. First the blogger. Which, like I said before, is a lot more appealing than the FB notes and well, the myspace is kind of obsolete.
I'm playing around with igoogle today and I just remembered that igoogle has all these gadgets. So I looked for blogger and I found it. I thought it would just give me updates. The big surprise is that I can post updates there through here. It's cool, although it is missing all the little tools from blogger like font size, posting images and all that. So it's not as good as the real deal but it's good enough.
I'm only posting this blog because I want to see if it works or if it posts different... I'll keep you posted.
I'm playing around with igoogle today and I just remembered that igoogle has all these gadgets. So I looked for blogger and I found it. I thought it would just give me updates. The big surprise is that I can post updates there through here. It's cool, although it is missing all the little tools from blogger like font size, posting images and all that. So it's not as good as the real deal but it's good enough.
I'm only posting this blog because I want to see if it works or if it posts different... I'll keep you posted.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Blogging
I forgot how much I love blogging. It really releases my emotions and tensions. Plus, it's fun to throw my ideas and opinions out there. I don't know why I stopped. I had so much time when I was unemployed. I guess I was busy enjoying my time off that I put it off or something. And I did have some stories to tell. Man I have many to tell now, except that I signed a confidentiality contract and I can't really say too much.
Yeah I think I know why I stopped blogging. The job I had before this one was kind of public and I didn't want to get in trouble or get my dude in trouble either since he worked for the competition. It was very tense. So much so that I was very glad when I lost my job. I couldn't really express myself. My old boss really cornered me into a very uncomfortable situation. I was miserable and I couldn't quit because we all know that if you leave, you get no UI.
Well, I don't know if I will get as many readers here as I used to in myspace. Everyone has migrated to Facebook and even if I post a link, I am not too sure how this works with the comments. Like, I don't know if you can just comment without logging into blogger or gmail, but people are iffy about clicking on a link to read something. Back with myspace, it was right there, all you had to do was comment. And I tried the note thing with Facebook, but I just didn't like it so much. This is visually more attractive. It doesn't matter if I get readers or not, but I'll still share the link, just in case anyone cares.
So hopefully I'll start using this tool more. I started yesterday and I really enjoyed it.
Until next time.
Yeah I think I know why I stopped blogging. The job I had before this one was kind of public and I didn't want to get in trouble or get my dude in trouble either since he worked for the competition. It was very tense. So much so that I was very glad when I lost my job. I couldn't really express myself. My old boss really cornered me into a very uncomfortable situation. I was miserable and I couldn't quit because we all know that if you leave, you get no UI.
Well, I don't know if I will get as many readers here as I used to in myspace. Everyone has migrated to Facebook and even if I post a link, I am not too sure how this works with the comments. Like, I don't know if you can just comment without logging into blogger or gmail, but people are iffy about clicking on a link to read something. Back with myspace, it was right there, all you had to do was comment. And I tried the note thing with Facebook, but I just didn't like it so much. This is visually more attractive. It doesn't matter if I get readers or not, but I'll still share the link, just in case anyone cares.
So hopefully I'll start using this tool more. I started yesterday and I really enjoyed it.
Until next time.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Religion
Yeah, I went there. This is the first time in months I have blogged and this is my first blogger.com blog (I used to use myspace). I thought I lost my passion for some time. No, actually, I did. But that's another blog for another time. Today, I woke up thinking so many things about today. About what today represents and the dreams I had last night. So yeah, I'm gonna talk about it. I'm actually going to share my real thoughts about religion and possibly piss off some people. So fuck it. How else would I come back to blogging, if it's not with something controversial and touchy. Let's do this.
My opinion on religion is simple. Religion is man made. It was invented out of necessity so that people had something to hold on to. So that people can bear the atrocities of the world. Also, because the world needed rules. They also needed fear to control the villains of the earth. That's religion. Nothing more. People are ignorant by nature. As we all know, we are not born with knowledge and back when civilization was barely beginning, people were more ignorant and unscientific than now. But like in modern times, geniuses and intellectual people were born. I actually believe that the first people to bring up religion were crazy geniuses who invented a way to manipulate people. Poor, ignorant and gullible people. Hence the Old testament, the Qu'ran, the "teachings". People feared God or Gods in the beginning. So some prophets changed the rules a bit, realizing you can catch more flies with honey than hate. So an eye for an eye was not really the way to be. This is when Christianity really took off. Then when others saw how successful Christianity really was, we got variations. Pretty much with the same rules (thou shall not kill, thou shall not steal, etc..) but done to fit other group of people's needs.
Muslims are very extreme. Judaism is somewhat extreme. Christianity is more convenient. Catholics, born again Christians, Mormons, baptists, protestants, etc... all derive from Christianity. Each one claiming to be legitimate to the ways of the Lord and the way into heaven; including Islam and Jews.
Why am I thinking about this today? Because people have turned September 11 into a day about religious differences. This horrible day that happened so many years ago. The event that killed so many people for POLITICAL reasons has now been turned into a religion controversy. So today, I want to express my opinion on what religion is to a thinking person. I have another blog coming soon about this day, and what I think about this country and their arrogance, but I will talk about it on a different day, when people aren't too sensitive about the subject.
I was born and raised a catholic. I have good memories about it too (I was not one of the unlucky molested ones thankfully). The stories were beautiful; stories about a guy named Jesus and his mom Mary, kings, apostles, maidens, palaces and one God. Parables they call them. The Bible really is a great book. Very entertaining and full of everything, including sex, violence and magic. I am definitely not an expert so I may be wrong but the Old Testament is crazy and did not pair well with Jesus' teachings; so when he died they made the new one. I think that's pretty much how it went. Anyway, being a catholic and believing in God since I remember, it is really hard for me to discontinue the belief in everything that was taught to me. Religion has a way to guilt you for LIFE, even though I was always smarter than my religion classmates at any age. I questioned everything, but back then, because God wants it that way, was good enough to shut me up; I was smart enough not to get in trouble and shut it but it DID bother me. I won't lie. I did enjoy those parables. But now I am pretty certain they were made by very smart people who used their LOGIC. Stories. Like Pinocchio, who teaches us not to lie. What's the difference? Carlo Collodi was no apostle. Yet his story was just as fantastic as some parables. Scary too. And in the end teaches the kid to behave, mind their parents, don't lie, etc.. but without the guilt. That damn guilt.
Does God exist? I think there's something greater than us. I can't just leave that notion. There's so much in the world that can't be explained. So yeah, there is something. God, a wizard, mother nature. I don't think I should praise him. I respect him. But he made me the way I am for a reason, right? And I can think what I want. Or else he would've made robots. And if he did make me this smart only to keep testing me, my values and my person all together to see if I'm worthy, then that doesn't sound like something good. That sounds like an abusive relationship. No? Well that's my opinion. Do I think he will strike me for writing this? Nope. If something bad were to happen to me in the next 24 hours I will not blame this blog or my way of thinking or him. We make choices. If I choose to go left instead of right and I die, oh well. I guess I should've gone right. If some religious freak decides to kill me because of my idea, then that's that person's problem. Not mine. Not God's either.
Jesus. I like him. Very cool. The original hippie IMO. Promotes love and peace. I think he was more than that and I do believe his idea was pure. I think he was a gifted child who realized that religion was full of fear and hate. So he changed things a bit. Maybe he was the original David Copperfield. Made things appear and disappear. And he was smart enough to use that to make people look his way. Or maybe all the magic mentioned was just a tad exaggerated. After all, the bible was not written by Jesus himself but his apostles and other prophets. Genius. The original big story. This is what reporters live for. A man with the right idea. Betrayal. His body gets taken from his tomb (I'm sure they had no guards there). Suddenly it's the biggest story yet. And people STILL believe it. Even after all we know in this day and age. We're so gullible I swear.
Now before you all get your panties all in a bundle, think about it. If some dude suddenly claims to be the son of God today and he performs tricks and such, would you believe him? Follow him? Write stories about him? Would you do as the apostles and leave your job, families, home? Do you really think the apostles didn't get shit from the women they left behind? The children they left behind? Is that good parenting? I am not saying they were bad people, but back then, what else was there to do right? Who knows? They needed it. The people needed it. What I do know, what my logic tells me is that we are smarter than this and all we really need is to be decent human beings. If you need prayer and churches and some dude telling you what to do in the name of an invisible being, then so be it. If that makes you feel better, go for it. But just because it makes you feel better doesn't mean it makes me or others feel good. If being extreme like a muslim or being prejudicial like a christian or a Jew make you a better person to others then good. But stop pushing your religion on me. I don't like it. With that being said, giving me any type of blessing from any religion does not bother me at all, I take that as you giving me good vibrations and such. I appreciate that.
I'll tell you what I do believe in. I believe in being a good person. I believe in not hurting others on purpose. I believe we are not perfect and we can stand some people and some not so much. Some people may never be compatible with you either. It's part of life. What I don't understand is hate. Why? If you're incompatible with someone, stay away. Why the hate because you look different or believe in ghosts? Human nature is such a tricky thing.
I'm done with this. I'm sure I have many more ideas I'd like to spew on this here blog. But, I also have a life and I want to enjoy the rest of my Saturday.
May the eternal sun shine down upon you and may your blades never dull.
My opinion on religion is simple. Religion is man made. It was invented out of necessity so that people had something to hold on to. So that people can bear the atrocities of the world. Also, because the world needed rules. They also needed fear to control the villains of the earth. That's religion. Nothing more. People are ignorant by nature. As we all know, we are not born with knowledge and back when civilization was barely beginning, people were more ignorant and unscientific than now. But like in modern times, geniuses and intellectual people were born. I actually believe that the first people to bring up religion were crazy geniuses who invented a way to manipulate people. Poor, ignorant and gullible people. Hence the Old testament, the Qu'ran, the "teachings". People feared God or Gods in the beginning. So some prophets changed the rules a bit, realizing you can catch more flies with honey than hate. So an eye for an eye was not really the way to be. This is when Christianity really took off. Then when others saw how successful Christianity really was, we got variations. Pretty much with the same rules (thou shall not kill, thou shall not steal, etc..) but done to fit other group of people's needs.
Muslims are very extreme. Judaism is somewhat extreme. Christianity is more convenient. Catholics, born again Christians, Mormons, baptists, protestants, etc... all derive from Christianity. Each one claiming to be legitimate to the ways of the Lord and the way into heaven; including Islam and Jews.
Why am I thinking about this today? Because people have turned September 11 into a day about religious differences. This horrible day that happened so many years ago. The event that killed so many people for POLITICAL reasons has now been turned into a religion controversy. So today, I want to express my opinion on what religion is to a thinking person. I have another blog coming soon about this day, and what I think about this country and their arrogance, but I will talk about it on a different day, when people aren't too sensitive about the subject.
I was born and raised a catholic. I have good memories about it too (I was not one of the unlucky molested ones thankfully). The stories were beautiful; stories about a guy named Jesus and his mom Mary, kings, apostles, maidens, palaces and one God. Parables they call them. The Bible really is a great book. Very entertaining and full of everything, including sex, violence and magic. I am definitely not an expert so I may be wrong but the Old Testament is crazy and did not pair well with Jesus' teachings; so when he died they made the new one. I think that's pretty much how it went. Anyway, being a catholic and believing in God since I remember, it is really hard for me to discontinue the belief in everything that was taught to me. Religion has a way to guilt you for LIFE, even though I was always smarter than my religion classmates at any age. I questioned everything, but back then, because God wants it that way, was good enough to shut me up; I was smart enough not to get in trouble and shut it but it DID bother me. I won't lie. I did enjoy those parables. But now I am pretty certain they were made by very smart people who used their LOGIC. Stories. Like Pinocchio, who teaches us not to lie. What's the difference? Carlo Collodi was no apostle. Yet his story was just as fantastic as some parables. Scary too. And in the end teaches the kid to behave, mind their parents, don't lie, etc.. but without the guilt. That damn guilt.
Does God exist? I think there's something greater than us. I can't just leave that notion. There's so much in the world that can't be explained. So yeah, there is something. God, a wizard, mother nature. I don't think I should praise him. I respect him. But he made me the way I am for a reason, right? And I can think what I want. Or else he would've made robots. And if he did make me this smart only to keep testing me, my values and my person all together to see if I'm worthy, then that doesn't sound like something good. That sounds like an abusive relationship. No? Well that's my opinion. Do I think he will strike me for writing this? Nope. If something bad were to happen to me in the next 24 hours I will not blame this blog or my way of thinking or him. We make choices. If I choose to go left instead of right and I die, oh well. I guess I should've gone right. If some religious freak decides to kill me because of my idea, then that's that person's problem. Not mine. Not God's either.
Jesus. I like him. Very cool. The original hippie IMO. Promotes love and peace. I think he was more than that and I do believe his idea was pure. I think he was a gifted child who realized that religion was full of fear and hate. So he changed things a bit. Maybe he was the original David Copperfield. Made things appear and disappear. And he was smart enough to use that to make people look his way. Or maybe all the magic mentioned was just a tad exaggerated. After all, the bible was not written by Jesus himself but his apostles and other prophets. Genius. The original big story. This is what reporters live for. A man with the right idea. Betrayal. His body gets taken from his tomb (I'm sure they had no guards there). Suddenly it's the biggest story yet. And people STILL believe it. Even after all we know in this day and age. We're so gullible I swear.
Now before you all get your panties all in a bundle, think about it. If some dude suddenly claims to be the son of God today and he performs tricks and such, would you believe him? Follow him? Write stories about him? Would you do as the apostles and leave your job, families, home? Do you really think the apostles didn't get shit from the women they left behind? The children they left behind? Is that good parenting? I am not saying they were bad people, but back then, what else was there to do right? Who knows? They needed it. The people needed it. What I do know, what my logic tells me is that we are smarter than this and all we really need is to be decent human beings. If you need prayer and churches and some dude telling you what to do in the name of an invisible being, then so be it. If that makes you feel better, go for it. But just because it makes you feel better doesn't mean it makes me or others feel good. If being extreme like a muslim or being prejudicial like a christian or a Jew make you a better person to others then good. But stop pushing your religion on me. I don't like it. With that being said, giving me any type of blessing from any religion does not bother me at all, I take that as you giving me good vibrations and such. I appreciate that.
I'll tell you what I do believe in. I believe in being a good person. I believe in not hurting others on purpose. I believe we are not perfect and we can stand some people and some not so much. Some people may never be compatible with you either. It's part of life. What I don't understand is hate. Why? If you're incompatible with someone, stay away. Why the hate because you look different or believe in ghosts? Human nature is such a tricky thing.
I'm done with this. I'm sure I have many more ideas I'd like to spew on this here blog. But, I also have a life and I want to enjoy the rest of my Saturday.
May the eternal sun shine down upon you and may your blades never dull.
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