Random rant of the day- Irresponsibility and "babies"

I will discourage anybody and everybody from having children, unless it's your first one AND you have the means to support it AND you only plan to have ONE.  If you dont have the patience with a dog or a fish, then you bet your ass you won't have the patience with a person.  Because it is not a BABY, it is a complete person.  They grow up.  And they talk (man do they talk) and they run and they want your attention 90% of the time.  So please, do us all a favor, if you can't educate, love, pay attention to and maintain your child properly, don't breed.  You may think you can do it and that you are ready for it, but even the best parents were not ready.  Years go by and moms realize "oh shit this wasnt for me" after 2-5 kids.  You already did it, it was your choice, now be responsible until theyre at least 18.  And believe me, that's not even the end.  There are exceptions where you can have more than 1 and be great but it's very minimal and if you are that exception, congrats to you.  Otherwise, just stick to 1 or none.   Thank you.

Antsy

Today is one of those days I just feel antsy and I am sitting here at work just wanting to go home.

No, I am not having a bad day, or have an extreme amount of work.  In fact, my boss is out of town for a few days so this should really feel like vacation.

I don't know what it is but at this moment I feel like screaming.

I want to do something to my house.  I have been living there for a year and a half and I feel like I have not accomplished much.  Everything requires money or time.  For the most part, I think time is probably my worst enemy. 

I hate to admit it but our apartment looked nicer and more complete because we didn't have as much space and we didn't have 3 dogs.  We clean up more because of all the dirt the dogs bring in.  As much as I want to be patient and get more energy to clean up more on a daily basis, I just cant.  I'm always too tired.  Not to mention the fact that I have to drive a lot every day because we decided that 25 minutes away from work was not such a big deal. 

Then there's the money issue.  I am so broke.  This summer was brutal when it came to money.  I feel like we splurged way too much.  And yet, we were always tight.  I can't even plan a weekend getaway.  Hell I can't even go out on a date.  Last time we went, we used the help of a gift certificate he got from work, otherwise it wouldn't have happened.  Then we fell asleep, because AGAIN, we are so tired. 

I wonder.. is this it?  Is this the beginning of the fucking end already?  Are we that old??  Seems like it sometimes.  I am not complaining about my life, I have a nice life, but right now, I just don't feel like I have accomplished much.  I wish at least my house looked better.

*End rant for now.