Not myself today. I have allergies or something. Just a little puffy and weak. Not looking forward to lunch either. I just want to go to sleep.
Speaking of feeling decrepit and old. I went out this weekend with some old friends. We went "clubbing". Oh dear God, I thought I could handle it. I could not.
I dont understand how some people do it at my age. Cocaine maybe? I think my mistake was not getting drunk b4 getting there. But I don't like getting drunk anymore. I like to drink and enjoy a good buzz. Once it starts getting to the drunk phase I have to stop. But anyway... I think it's this city. I've been to nice clubs at Austin where they play the same kind of music and it doesn't annoy me. Here it's just too damn loud, they are truly doing it wrong in that department. The surroundings are pretty and unreal in a way. Never mind the young hotties that hang out there showing waaaay too much skin for the month of January and the papparazzi thing they like to do over and over and over and over and over. Theres also cougars, way older than me dressed even sluttier than the young ones and just having a great time dancing and prancing like idiots. Such a fantastic atmosphere. Almost like they really think they're hollywood celebs overindulging in their self love. Don't get me wrong. I like to look good and takes pics every now and then of myself. But that was just way too much. Maybe it's me. I'm the one with the problem. Or it's just not for me. Not here anyway. To make matters worse, I couldnt even get a buzz bc the drinks there were kinda weak. It was nice to see my old friends, but that's all I did, see them. I wouldve wanted to talk to my friend who I hadn't really hung out with in ages and that place just ruined it. :( Oh well, she'll be here till march.
I really believe I've outgrown this town. I need more things. Different activities, places, sounds and foods. I guess I am the problem. I'm bored with this city. There's no variety. It's the same shit over and over. I'm tired of accordions all over town. That's all you hear. I cant even appreciate a good german polka or a zydeco tune without cringing a little. I would appreciate even the mexican accordion music, but I can't because that's all there is. And when you try to run away to a decent club, you encounter different music, but it's too loud.
I'm old, but that's ok, I can totally live with it. I can still have fun, but my way. I shall avoid these insane clubs from now on. Unless the music is low enough for conversation.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
useless shit & other things
I'm just writing to write. Forgive any spelling and/or grammar errors. yeah, I know, not like I cared before and all that crap, but just thought I'd say it anyway.
So what's with the hooker heels nowadays? I thought about it because I saw some ads right now on my pandora page. I wanna click but clicking on ads is never a good idea. So anyway, I dont get them. They're so slutty and strippery. Very dangerous to walk in. and dammit! YES I fell into it too. I have boots that should be worn to walk the streets. I look like a complete PUTA and I guess I kinda do feel sexy in a porn star kinda way. But dammit I'm allowed!! I've had enough sex in my life to earn the right to look like a hooker every now and then, plus I'm still cute. Still, it seems like not just hookers wear them nowadays. 15 yr old girls do too. This is why we have so many pervs in this world. You have a 15 or 16 yr old looking like shes barely 18 wearing hooker clothes and shoes. Yikes. Be careful out there guys.
What is the fashion industry doing to our youth? What are parents doing about not letting the kids wear such crap? I sound like my parents it's fucking horrible but fuck it's true; I used to dress like Debbie Gibson when I was 14. THAT was fashion for teenagers. We wouldnt wear midriffs, tiny shorts with heels, showed off ass and boobs, etc.... Unless you were the class slut (and believe me she was pointed at and marked back then). Now it's like theyre all sluts. At least they look like them. The prudes get pointed at and it's the rest of the sluts' job to try and convert them. The whole be yourself campaign they have today is great in theory, but I think it is very misguided. It's more like, it's ok to be promiscuous and gay, let's all experiment. Also, all these little fuckers think theyre adults. They actually think they are more savvy just because they have more knowledge of the outside world through the internet. Maybe I am wrong. Maybe they do know better and it's ok to fuck a 14 yr old if he/she is street smart enough. Ok went too far and gross. But yeah, maybe they SHOULD teach US. I mean it's obvious some parents just really can't handle their children. All those spoiled brats that go around making bombs in their basements are children that were never spanked, punished and/or monitored. How can you NOT notice??? Those kids were obviously ignored if they have the time to develop some sort of torture fetish or anything relating to hardcore gore and violence. And yes, there are exceptions where kids outsmart their parents when they do their illegal activities. Those fall under psycohotic. Kids who have no feelings whatsoever but who know right from wrong and don't care. But, for the most part, brats/juvies/thugs,/depressed kids come from parents who just weren't there enough. I heard about a 15 yr old getting smacked on an airplane by an old man because the kid refused to follow boarding orders. Ok so maybe he went to far, but seriously... follow the goddamned rules boy! Now the man is getting sued of course bc he assaulted a kid. (for that they are kids huh?). I'm sure that brat had it coming to him though. If you cant follow simple instructions or refuse to because you think you're SOMEBODY, then you deserve to get smacked. When you have a job and pay your own bills, then you have at least the right to question things, if not, STFU and sit down kid. You ain't got no rights!
I was talking to my co-workers at lunch today and we all agree that something went horribly wrong at one point a few years back education wise. But I think it's been like this forever and people didnt care. Is it that employers didnt care to check school and/or criminal backgrounds? They are giving people a harder time now education wise. I see people that can't get jobs that were easy to get (like custodians) only bc they didnt finish high school. And now that they're checking, it's amazing the level of ignorance out there. Literally. There are so many people that didnt even get past 8th grade. I can see old people dealing with that, because back in the day it was more common. But 20 something yr olds that didnt finish school? I mean forget the GED or HS diploma, I'm talking they didnt go past 9th grade. In this day and age, where the law gets involved if kids dont go to school, wtf? Really. What's up with this shit? Then I found out that your parents can sign you out. They authorize their kids to drop out and it's legit. Ridiculous. But I guess it's all part of being in a "free" country. Sounds to me more like a lazy country. People need education, starting with parenting. Some people should never breed.
Funny that I started writing this 5 hours ago and I haven't been able to finish. Unlike other people that don't give a shit about their job, I give priority to my work first. People walk in, phones ring, supervisors needs reports, etc... So I have to stop and do what I have to, but it's not long b4 I finish and I have to rearrange my thoughs and all that...Sure this isn't work related at all and I would surely get in trouble for blogging on the clock, but I CAN. As long as it doesnt interfere with work, I don't feel guilty for doing it. This is why I haven't been able to finish it. I'm sorry if you don't agree with me doing this at work but it gets very frustrating and slow, I need more responsibilities. I'm not used to this. It's a mickey mouse position, anybody could do it. I feel no challenge and it makes me ill sometimes. So I blog to make the time pass and just feel some sort of release. Besides, it makes my day more interesting when I'm tending to someone and I'm trying to keep an idea in my head about my blog. If I were in accounting or something more serious, then I'd probably not see the internet until the end of the day. Not making up excuses, but I'd like my readers to know I'm not a slacker. I just don't want my mind going to mush because all I do is sit here.
It's 3:30 and I'm empty. I like this song in the background... I see right through you by DJ Encore. It's a few years old, but I still like it. Ha now it's that song about the sexy bitch (David Guetta). X likes that song.
I'd like to mention that it's X's bday today. I don't know if he'd want me to mention his age but he uses readers. So.... yeah... old. Still, he's hot. Anyway, don't know what his plans are. I offered to take him to dinner. And I'd make him dinner but I do that every night... So... we'll see. Whatever he wants.
BTW, I love to tell clients to sit down. HA. They stand here waiting for me to call on their case worker and I tell them: "you can sit down, I'll let you know" I'm sure they hate it just as much as I hate them being in front of me.
If you are reading this (and I KNOW I get readers), don't be sissies and post something. At least I read it or something. I'd like to know who else, besides my bf and Aracely, sees it. :p
So what's with the hooker heels nowadays? I thought about it because I saw some ads right now on my pandora page. I wanna click but clicking on ads is never a good idea. So anyway, I dont get them. They're so slutty and strippery. Very dangerous to walk in. and dammit! YES I fell into it too. I have boots that should be worn to walk the streets. I look like a complete PUTA and I guess I kinda do feel sexy in a porn star kinda way. But dammit I'm allowed!! I've had enough sex in my life to earn the right to look like a hooker every now and then, plus I'm still cute. Still, it seems like not just hookers wear them nowadays. 15 yr old girls do too. This is why we have so many pervs in this world. You have a 15 or 16 yr old looking like shes barely 18 wearing hooker clothes and shoes. Yikes. Be careful out there guys.
What is the fashion industry doing to our youth? What are parents doing about not letting the kids wear such crap? I sound like my parents it's fucking horrible but fuck it's true; I used to dress like Debbie Gibson when I was 14. THAT was fashion for teenagers. We wouldnt wear midriffs, tiny shorts with heels, showed off ass and boobs, etc.... Unless you were the class slut (and believe me she was pointed at and marked back then). Now it's like theyre all sluts. At least they look like them. The prudes get pointed at and it's the rest of the sluts' job to try and convert them. The whole be yourself campaign they have today is great in theory, but I think it is very misguided. It's more like, it's ok to be promiscuous and gay, let's all experiment. Also, all these little fuckers think theyre adults. They actually think they are more savvy just because they have more knowledge of the outside world through the internet. Maybe I am wrong. Maybe they do know better and it's ok to fuck a 14 yr old if he/she is street smart enough. Ok went too far and gross. But yeah, maybe they SHOULD teach US. I mean it's obvious some parents just really can't handle their children. All those spoiled brats that go around making bombs in their basements are children that were never spanked, punished and/or monitored. How can you NOT notice??? Those kids were obviously ignored if they have the time to develop some sort of torture fetish or anything relating to hardcore gore and violence. And yes, there are exceptions where kids outsmart their parents when they do their illegal activities. Those fall under psycohotic. Kids who have no feelings whatsoever but who know right from wrong and don't care. But, for the most part, brats/juvies/thugs,/depressed kids come from parents who just weren't there enough. I heard about a 15 yr old getting smacked on an airplane by an old man because the kid refused to follow boarding orders. Ok so maybe he went to far, but seriously... follow the goddamned rules boy! Now the man is getting sued of course bc he assaulted a kid. (for that they are kids huh?). I'm sure that brat had it coming to him though. If you cant follow simple instructions or refuse to because you think you're SOMEBODY, then you deserve to get smacked. When you have a job and pay your own bills, then you have at least the right to question things, if not, STFU and sit down kid. You ain't got no rights!
I was talking to my co-workers at lunch today and we all agree that something went horribly wrong at one point a few years back education wise. But I think it's been like this forever and people didnt care. Is it that employers didnt care to check school and/or criminal backgrounds? They are giving people a harder time now education wise. I see people that can't get jobs that were easy to get (like custodians) only bc they didnt finish high school. And now that they're checking, it's amazing the level of ignorance out there. Literally. There are so many people that didnt even get past 8th grade. I can see old people dealing with that, because back in the day it was more common. But 20 something yr olds that didnt finish school? I mean forget the GED or HS diploma, I'm talking they didnt go past 9th grade. In this day and age, where the law gets involved if kids dont go to school, wtf? Really. What's up with this shit? Then I found out that your parents can sign you out. They authorize their kids to drop out and it's legit. Ridiculous. But I guess it's all part of being in a "free" country. Sounds to me more like a lazy country. People need education, starting with parenting. Some people should never breed.
Funny that I started writing this 5 hours ago and I haven't been able to finish. Unlike other people that don't give a shit about their job, I give priority to my work first. People walk in, phones ring, supervisors needs reports, etc... So I have to stop and do what I have to, but it's not long b4 I finish and I have to rearrange my thoughs and all that...Sure this isn't work related at all and I would surely get in trouble for blogging on the clock, but I CAN. As long as it doesnt interfere with work, I don't feel guilty for doing it. This is why I haven't been able to finish it. I'm sorry if you don't agree with me doing this at work but it gets very frustrating and slow, I need more responsibilities. I'm not used to this. It's a mickey mouse position, anybody could do it. I feel no challenge and it makes me ill sometimes. So I blog to make the time pass and just feel some sort of release. Besides, it makes my day more interesting when I'm tending to someone and I'm trying to keep an idea in my head about my blog. If I were in accounting or something more serious, then I'd probably not see the internet until the end of the day. Not making up excuses, but I'd like my readers to know I'm not a slacker. I just don't want my mind going to mush because all I do is sit here.
It's 3:30 and I'm empty. I like this song in the background... I see right through you by DJ Encore. It's a few years old, but I still like it. Ha now it's that song about the sexy bitch (David Guetta). X likes that song.
I'd like to mention that it's X's bday today. I don't know if he'd want me to mention his age but he uses readers. So.... yeah... old. Still, he's hot. Anyway, don't know what his plans are. I offered to take him to dinner. And I'd make him dinner but I do that every night... So... we'll see. Whatever he wants.
BTW, I love to tell clients to sit down. HA. They stand here waiting for me to call on their case worker and I tell them: "you can sit down, I'll let you know" I'm sure they hate it just as much as I hate them being in front of me.
If you are reading this (and I KNOW I get readers), don't be sissies and post something. At least I read it or something. I'd like to know who else, besides my bf and Aracely, sees it. :p
Monday, January 3, 2011
Happy new year?
I've become more and more cynical when it comes to holidays. I see them as an opportunity for a day or two off without the cost of my PTO. Don't get me wrong, I thoroughly enjoy my days off. It's just, the holidays themselves don't mean much to me anymore.
Christmas. I go with the flow. Over spend $$ like everyone else because I feel guilty if I don't. Period. That's all it has become. Getting together with family and/or friends is nice but you can do this at any time of the year. At least for me because they all live here.
New years? I used to LOVE new years eve and the parties and the drinking. I looked forward to it this time around and I had a nice time. But it's not as exciting as it used to be. I fell asleep around 3 when I used to last until at least 6. Maybe it's part of getting old. Dunno.
Also, the resolutions were a big part of it. I loved to make stupid resolutions that I knew I wouldnt keep. Then a few years ago, I just stopped. Still partied, still enjoyed the company of friends and liquor, but just stopped caring.
Now, it's just another day. A number changed. That's it. I still have the same job. Same haircut. Same clothes. Same friends. My closet still needs to be gutted and rearranged as I have been wanting to do it for 2 months. Nothing's really changed. And that's fine. It's just no big difference because a number changed in the calendar. The day you lose your job can be any day. The day you find another job can be in a month or 2. The day you get dumped, hitched, pregnant, meet the love of your life, have an accident, or die... That can happen any day. Certain events mark a certain date and those are important to remember. New years eve? Not that important. Good to get a day off so you can take off from your boring life, but the "holiday" itself is stupid.
Not everything is bitterness and criticism in this blog though. I do appreciate some memories that marked the calendar for 2010. I won't go month by month as I really don't recall most things but I will mention a few that I can think of now.
In the begining of the year I lost my job. Not a great loss really. In fact, I had the time of my life for a few months milking the tit of uncle sam. Waking up a bit later than what I was used to but not too late. Re-decorated a few rooms in the house. Painted on canvas (not that great but just to put some colors on my walls). It was truly wonderful. Sadly, reality kicked in and I had to accept a job offer or I'd lose my benefits. It wouldve affected my taxes as well. So back to work I went.
Before I went back to work, I spent a few days with my friend Gaby in Austin. I'd been wanting to do that for some time. Just take off on my own and forget about the real world for a bit. I think it was around March or April. It was the week of South by Southwest. I had never been to that festival, it's a bit expensive and somewhat overrated but I still had a really good time. I liked St. Patrick's day. That was very fun. During the days it was very relaxing. I'd wake up early to drop off Gaby to work and then I'd have the whole day to myself. I will always be grateful to her for opening the doors to her home and her car to me. If you're reading this Gaby, thank you. It's not easy to find friends like you and I would like you to know that I never take you for granted.
From that trip as well, one of the best memories was when X surprised me at a bar. I suspected he was on his way, he kept acting strange all night. Sending me messages and asking about cover and who was playing. When he showed up, I was so flattered. I missed him a lot and this gesture just melted me. Sick and sweet at the same time. I fell in love all over again.
I started exercising around spring at least 2 to 3 times a week. It started with the gym we have at the complex then I started using the wii playing the just dance games and zumba. It's gone up to 3 to 4 times a week. It really does make a difference. Not only do my clothes feel better but my body feels better as well. More energized. I like to look good, but feeling more active is the best. Makes you feel younger. This new life style I hope to keep for life. I'll surely try my best to do so.
One of my other good friends, Nety, took me out for my birthday. That's a great memory from 2010 as well. I hadn't really hung out with her in some time, so she surprised me by taking me to dinner and drinks. It was so nice that I almost felt like I had to fuck her afterwards. She didn't put the moves on me so I just thanked her. :p I wish I couldve done the same for her, but she has many friends and family who already had plans with her. I believe she went out of town. I owe her one for sure though.
Got a new job. A little different from what I've been doing, but not too much. Dealing with lazy people is not something new to me. That's all I have to say about that.
My son is in his 2nd year of college. Very proud of him, but I always have been and I always will be.
No lawsuits this year that I had to help out with. That's a good thing, especially since we were still paying for the one for the year before.
Summertime. San Japan. Always a good time.
I sang karaoke with a bunch of chickens... I mean chicks... at my sister's birthday party. Loud yes, but I had fun.
My sister was very ill for a couple of months. Sure that's sad but she came out of it ok and that's worth mentioning.
Little things here and there that I may not remember. Good laughs, good cries, good food, good drinks(the discovery of cucumber martinis), arguments, disagreements and great discussions (personal and political).
And let's not forget the good friends that shared last year with me. All of them, I hope, will last a lifetime.
So to end this little rant, this new year tastes the same to me so far as last year, but that's not necessarily a bad thing.
Salud!
Christmas. I go with the flow. Over spend $$ like everyone else because I feel guilty if I don't. Period. That's all it has become. Getting together with family and/or friends is nice but you can do this at any time of the year. At least for me because they all live here.
New years? I used to LOVE new years eve and the parties and the drinking. I looked forward to it this time around and I had a nice time. But it's not as exciting as it used to be. I fell asleep around 3 when I used to last until at least 6. Maybe it's part of getting old. Dunno.
Also, the resolutions were a big part of it. I loved to make stupid resolutions that I knew I wouldnt keep. Then a few years ago, I just stopped. Still partied, still enjoyed the company of friends and liquor, but just stopped caring.
Now, it's just another day. A number changed. That's it. I still have the same job. Same haircut. Same clothes. Same friends. My closet still needs to be gutted and rearranged as I have been wanting to do it for 2 months. Nothing's really changed. And that's fine. It's just no big difference because a number changed in the calendar. The day you lose your job can be any day. The day you find another job can be in a month or 2. The day you get dumped, hitched, pregnant, meet the love of your life, have an accident, or die... That can happen any day. Certain events mark a certain date and those are important to remember. New years eve? Not that important. Good to get a day off so you can take off from your boring life, but the "holiday" itself is stupid.
Not everything is bitterness and criticism in this blog though. I do appreciate some memories that marked the calendar for 2010. I won't go month by month as I really don't recall most things but I will mention a few that I can think of now.
In the begining of the year I lost my job. Not a great loss really. In fact, I had the time of my life for a few months milking the tit of uncle sam. Waking up a bit later than what I was used to but not too late. Re-decorated a few rooms in the house. Painted on canvas (not that great but just to put some colors on my walls). It was truly wonderful. Sadly, reality kicked in and I had to accept a job offer or I'd lose my benefits. It wouldve affected my taxes as well. So back to work I went.
Before I went back to work, I spent a few days with my friend Gaby in Austin. I'd been wanting to do that for some time. Just take off on my own and forget about the real world for a bit. I think it was around March or April. It was the week of South by Southwest. I had never been to that festival, it's a bit expensive and somewhat overrated but I still had a really good time. I liked St. Patrick's day. That was very fun. During the days it was very relaxing. I'd wake up early to drop off Gaby to work and then I'd have the whole day to myself. I will always be grateful to her for opening the doors to her home and her car to me. If you're reading this Gaby, thank you. It's not easy to find friends like you and I would like you to know that I never take you for granted.
From that trip as well, one of the best memories was when X surprised me at a bar. I suspected he was on his way, he kept acting strange all night. Sending me messages and asking about cover and who was playing. When he showed up, I was so flattered. I missed him a lot and this gesture just melted me. Sick and sweet at the same time. I fell in love all over again.
I started exercising around spring at least 2 to 3 times a week. It started with the gym we have at the complex then I started using the wii playing the just dance games and zumba. It's gone up to 3 to 4 times a week. It really does make a difference. Not only do my clothes feel better but my body feels better as well. More energized. I like to look good, but feeling more active is the best. Makes you feel younger. This new life style I hope to keep for life. I'll surely try my best to do so.
One of my other good friends, Nety, took me out for my birthday. That's a great memory from 2010 as well. I hadn't really hung out with her in some time, so she surprised me by taking me to dinner and drinks. It was so nice that I almost felt like I had to fuck her afterwards. She didn't put the moves on me so I just thanked her. :p I wish I couldve done the same for her, but she has many friends and family who already had plans with her. I believe she went out of town. I owe her one for sure though.
Got a new job. A little different from what I've been doing, but not too much. Dealing with lazy people is not something new to me. That's all I have to say about that.
My son is in his 2nd year of college. Very proud of him, but I always have been and I always will be.
No lawsuits this year that I had to help out with. That's a good thing, especially since we were still paying for the one for the year before.
Summertime. San Japan. Always a good time.
I sang karaoke with a bunch of chickens... I mean chicks... at my sister's birthday party. Loud yes, but I had fun.
My sister was very ill for a couple of months. Sure that's sad but she came out of it ok and that's worth mentioning.
Little things here and there that I may not remember. Good laughs, good cries, good food, good drinks(the discovery of cucumber martinis), arguments, disagreements and great discussions (personal and political).
And let's not forget the good friends that shared last year with me. All of them, I hope, will last a lifetime.
So to end this little rant, this new year tastes the same to me so far as last year, but that's not necessarily a bad thing.
Salud!
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