The other night I was outside with the dogs and I did a quick scan of my yard. Once ugly and blank, full of dirt, then cleaner, then greener, then upgraded with a faboulous green back yard and a couple of young trees and patio furniture. Then came the pool and it was fabulous. Everything looked beautiful.
We had parties, the dogs enjoyed it, especially my Rory. We would grill out on Saturdays even if it was just us.
Then it all changed and even the yard looks a little sad. We upkeep the pool and use it but seems like it needs a revamp all around. Nothing crazy, just a bit here and there and definitely new patio furniture. The sun out here is brutal.
I think what got me the most is being out there and not seeing my Rory. Clara too but that yard belonged to Rory. He was the king of the backyard and the swimming pool. Anytime he wanted to go in, he would. He wouldnt even wait. I miss that. No other dog wants to go in.
I think ever since he died, I havent seen the yard the same way. Like, I dare say I built the pool for mostly him, for sure that little lounge area. Crazy how I still miss him so much. My heart aches when I think about stuff like this. Like I can think of him on the couch and anecdotes and laugh, but when it comes to the backyard, it's so depressing. And I dont want to do that anymore. It is also my area and I should enjoy it.
I think once I get new furniture and I revamp it and clean it, I will probably see it in a new light and enjoy it more.
Just my thoughts today.
