I haven't been blogging much. I used to do it all the time. It's not that nothing new has happened, I'm just bleh.
Started exercising again. Have been doing it on and off, like one week and then nothing the next, never really left it but I'm trying to make it every week at least 3-4 times. As it is, I started this week, it's barely Thursday and I'm already feeling more energized and more confident. My clothes feel better. I need to make an effort. I really do. Not just to look good but for my health. I'm no spring chicken anymore.
Speaking of that... It's my birthday next week. It's not as significant as it used to be. Don't get me wrong, I'll take any excuse to celebrate, take a day off, go out of town, buy me something, etc... and this day is mine, so even more so. Then again, I can do that every other weekend. Dunno. Getting older is just not as cool anymore. I have good genes. I look a lot younger than I should but I feel older than I am. Heh. Probably because of all the partying I did when I was younger. I'm not even 40 yet but I feel like 50. I can't stay up too late because I start falling asleep. Last weekend I had to take an energy shot and yeah it worked, but I over did it. It was 4:30 and I was tired as hell, but I could NOT go to sleep. I was freaking out. Next time I'm taking half. Fuck that.
I started writing this blog yesterday but I got so busy I had to leave it. If I felt uninspired yesterday, today is even worse. Not only that, I have no idea where I was going with this... :S
All I know is that I'm having a bad week. It was supposed to be a decent week and a fun weekend but apparently life had something else in mind. I'm extremely depressed. I got problems. Nothing to worry about, it's just mental or woman crap....Bad week to have a vagina I swear. I know I'll get over it soon enough though, I always do. People like me just do.
Speaking of vaginas. It's crossed my mind in the past to try lesbianism. Not as a one night hot thing... anyone can have that. More like a relationship. Now, I didn't say I WANT that, I said it's crossed my mind. Especially the times when it seems almost impossible to share your life with a man. I mean, imagine having a shopping buddy ALL THE TIME. Guys would hit on you a LOT, although I have no problem with that at all anyway. We would be more understanding to our emotional needs. PMS would probably go smoother living with a chick. I certainly wouldnt mind fondling boobs, I mean I do mine all the time. Then I thought, wait... I would eventually need to eat her out. Yeah... Not gonna happen. Besides, I like my boyfriend. And well, there is absolutely no feminine side to him. That could be annoying but it's also kinda hot. Anyway, just thought I'd share that random thought.
So the weekend is finally here. Suddenly everyone has plans. A friend of mine is coming into town. Another friend is having a party. There was that out of town deal I was going to go to, but changed my mind at the last minute (nobody wants a debbie downer on a trip). My coworkers want to do happy hour after work. My mom wants to see me today, although now that I'm not going anywhere, I could just save it for Sunday. Ugh, everything is just bleh to me right now. I dont know if this would be considered my bday weekend or next weekend (It's this Tuesday), but I'd rather save it for when my bf doesnt have his kids. Besides... Debbie Downer... not cool.
What else... Oh, I saw the royal wedding this morning, well the recap anyway, while I was getting ready for work. How cute was that? Yeah yeah... I'm not a marriage person, but I like to look at weddings and wedding dresses... I'm weird, I know. Her dress. Perfect. It really looked like mine when I got married years ago. I like hers better of course. Hers is simpler. And that's what I wanted. My mom and aunts over did it. But it was still very pretty. I'll see if I can find a picture of it and scan it. If I do, I'll edit this post and paste it here.
I'm out of things to say.
